28 2 / 2012
Absolutely loving this song right now!
Fun.: We Are Young ft. Janelle Monáe [OFFICIAL VIDEO] (by FueledByRamen)
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28 2 / 2012
So I finally get on Tumblr again after months of absence. It’s amazing how many Born and Raised CD cover art is already re-posted! John has some amazingly supportive fans! I’m so excited for the rest of his album to come out. Shadow Days is so beautiful. I really hope he plays in Indianapolis this summer. I won’t miss this tour for the world!
08 6 / 2011
In My Tree: Dickheads don't come to John Mayer concerts.
‘‘Oh, I know when a guy on stage says ‘I love each and every one of you’ that it is a dubious statement. It is a statement that instantly invites criticism, how is that possible? How is that theoretically, psychologically possible that you could love each and every one of you who are in here? Because for two hours, we all put aside the self consciousness of what it takes to perform in this world. It seems to me that it’s just one big performance. It shouldn’t be. It shouldn’t be a performance of finally somehow attain credibility of those around you, it shouldn’t be like that, but somehow it is. And somehow we’re always trying to constantly perform for the person at the left or right of us for their acceptance and their approval. But for two hours, we get to shed that. Because everybody approves of everybody. If you’re here, I approve. If you’re singing along, you’re my friend. If you know of any one or more subjects that I have maybe trounced upon a little too much this evening, then you see eye-to-eye with me. And I feel like there’s like 18.000 people who just—who are sort of, not really a crowd. It’s a crowd of people who feel very much alone from time to time trying to navigate through some pretty crazy stuff. Dickheads don’t come to John Mayer concerts. If you’re a dickhead, there’s plenty to hate about me. Plenty to hate. So everybody here is after the same thing. Just love, and affection and peace. And feeling like they matter. And feeling like things are gonna be OK. And feeling like maybe we’ve been a little too hard on ourselves for no reason and that with our own permission, that with our own permission we can change the math a little bit and things can be better instantly. With our own permission. And that’s why I mean when I say I love each and every one of you. And I want you all to be safe, and I want you all to be happy. Because I think that it’s a pretty cool thing to say that you’re a Mayer fan. I’m sorry if that comes off wrong, but with this band on stage and we go into this moment where I wish you all more than anybody could with a newsletter or a fan-club, or a magazine, or an interview. This is real, this is what they call real talk, except it’s sung, and I wish it for you. And it goes like this…’ - John Mayer, Holmdel, NJ, 2010.
(via backtoyouagaain)
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19 5 / 2011
I really, really, really want one of these! My blog was extremely dismal so I decided to add a beautiful woman smoking a cigarette… Something I will never do again!
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19 5 / 2011
Another day, another smoke…
Damn it! I did it again! I just finished my first cigarette today. That brings the count up to 4 since Saturday night. I know this is killing me because first off, @jennyluwho says so and secondly, I have now trained myself to believe that one at night is acceptable. Damn, I’m so gullible!
Overall, life still sucks! The sun still refuses to shine, the rain still refuses to stop, and cigarettes are still bad for your health! The worst part about all of this is that I actually have to cope. I can’t stay in bed all day and sleep away the cravings and anger. I have to go to work, take care of kids, do the laundry… UGH!
I think I’m going to wallow in misery until Monday. On Monday I’m going to put my big girl panties on, go for a run in the morning, and suck it up! Till then, I’m gonna pout, spit, growl, and eat my way through this stupid addiction. Thanks to a wonderful friend’s advice, I now have a way to get through this anger (without taking it out on the boyfriend anymore). No more cigarettes for me! Damn, stupid, bitch ass cigarettes! Fucking piece of shit nicotine! Sorry for the language but that felt great!
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18 5 / 2011
Learning to love myself again
I’m not sure if it’s the whole nicotine withdrawal or PMS (Yes, my past 3 entries have involved both these subjects) but I am really hating my life about now! Everyone keeps telling me to be kind to myself while I’m trying to quit smoking. I’m supposed to pamper my body to help it through this rough time. Problem is, emotionally I am a wreck! Emotionally, I pamper myself with cigarettes!!!
I gave in and smoked one tonight. I don’t feel guilty about it either. I probably should but I’m kinda resenting my body and emotions right now. I feel so nasty and bloated that I don’t want to do anything but sleep! I keep telling myself that if I wake up early enough, I can get a good workout in before heading to work… That hasn’t been happening in over a month now! I’m slacking and feeling it BIG TIME!
The lack of sunshine is really putting me in a funk too! I need some daylight! I need to feel the warm sun on my skin! I need to sweat out all these bull shit toxins that are invading me! Ugh!!!
I really need to get back to a happy place. I need to start taking care of myself. I need to start eating properly, exercising, and being good to my body. Maybe I’ll start next week. It feels too good wallowing in my own self pity for the moment. I’m going to go to bed and pretend that I’m going to wake up and go for a run in the morning. Nite ya’ll!
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17 5 / 2011
I made it!
I have made it all day without a single cigarette! I really wasn’t even craving them much until just recently. I’ve been really edgy and irritated today though. Not sure if I can attribute that to nicotine withdrawal or PMS. I’m thinking a bit of both. Bad combination!
On a lighter note, I went to my weekly chiropractic appointment today. My chiropractor (who is an amazing woman), told me that I was one of the strongest women she has ever met. It was an amazingly genuine compliment and really made my day!
Don’t feel like writing much tonight. Even with the nice compliment, I’m still down in the dumps! Hope life starts looking up a bit or else I might just crawl into a hole until summer…
16 5 / 2011
I DON’T WANNA QUIT SMOKING!!!
I decided to quit smoking on Sunday. The problem being… I really don’t want to! I know how horrible it is for you and I have quit multiple times, I just really enjoy it! I don’t smoke very much, maybe 5-6 a day. But, I’m an avid exerciser and I am turning 29 next month. I know how horrible smoking is for your skin, lungs, and basically YOUR WHOLE BODY! I know I can quit, I just really don’t want to.
There just comes a point in time though where you have to do things you don’t want to do. This seems to be one of those times! I smoked two cigarettes tonight though. They are the only two I have had since Saturday night. It seems to me that quitting five days before your period starts is a really shitty time to attempt such an amazing feat but, I can’t keep putting it off!
I’m gonna try really hard to quit and hope that I can will myself to not want to anymore. I’m going to miss this nasty habit! I’m going to miss sitting outside on a summer’s night with a beer and a cigarette. I’m gonna miss my five minute break mid-work day. I’m gonna miss the only drug that can control my temper…
I’m not gonna miss lying to my daughter when I want to go outside for a smoke. I’m not sure how many times she will believe that I’m getting something from my car yet coming back empty handed. She’s only four years old, but she certainly isn’t stupid.
I’m not gonna miss bad breath and chewing gum all the time either. I definitely won’t miss feeling my running times get slower and slower because I’m out of breath. But, I’m gonna miss this nasty habit!
15 5 / 2011
"Sometimes,
I wish that I was a bong hit,
You’d let me in and love every minute
And tell the room the things I did to you."
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08 5 / 2011
"There is no way to be a perfect mom. There are a million ways to be a good one!"
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23 4 / 2011
R.I.P Courtney Liggett:
I’m so grateful to have so many beautiful sisters. Our love is so much thicker than blood. So many lessons to be learned, just not sure if they needed to be so harsh. Stick together sweethearts! Love each other and never stray too far. One of ours is now an angel, our own personal link to the heavens! I love you all!
13 4 / 2011
You HATE an in-animate idea?
I am trying to understand why so many people on this site blog about hating things like books or musicians. Everyone has the right to their opinion but can you honestly hate such an in-animate idea enough to blog and cuss about it? I guess there will always be those people that feel the need to be obtusely different then every one else. Too much of anything can be bad. Too much of wanting to NOT be just like everyone else is just as bad as wanting to be JUST LIKE everyone else. I try to stay somewhere in the middle because I like what I like! If other people like it too- great! That means we have something in common.
12 4 / 2011
Question…
Since when did tumblr turn into another friend “follower” collecting website?
